Thursday, February 3, 2011

free...

Today was the first day back to school since the days off due to ice and freezing rain.
I was feeling guilty that I was SO enjoying the break this afternoon.... with two kids in school and Hope napping it was just me and Silas. Oh what to do first? Well, I should catch up on laundry, I should excercise, I should spend time with the Lord... Oh but I want to play guitar.. I should clean the house, I should spend some one on one time with Silas...
I started to lament to the Lord that I can't possibly be everything I want to be. Fit trim housewife. Present fun mom. Beautiful sexy wife. Have a house straight out of country living and.a homemade dinner that Martha Stewart herself would be blown away by...
So what did I do?. Forgot the laundry. Let Silas watch a movie. And got out my guitar and played and sang my heart out... And God spoke to my spirit...
"Your expectations are not mine". He is not expecting all the things I am of myself.
And in those moments I was free. Free like Sarah running in the meadow in the springtime. Free...

I should forget the laundry more often.

7 comments:

Ryan and Denise said...

oh that is so awesome, i would have loved to sit and worship with you!

Shar said...

beautiful...and just the reminder i need on a daily basis!

AmyK said...

Beautiful. You made me cry. We do have too many expectations of ourselves, don't we?

loveandpeace said...

I was looking for images for "sleeping by the fire", found three that I liked including your baby Hope. Then I was led to your blog, I saw the picture. Then I read. You seem to be a happy, nicely arranged family. I long to have that kind of family, too.

Mama Rich said...

perfection is our enemy! May grace abound more and more!!!!

Jena said...

have you heard this song by Kristen Mueller?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUJvw0UmDqc

It reminds me of this post...
"In your ways oh, God..
Redemption is so much better than perfection."

Right there with you girl, in the thick of it....
What are YOU calling me to Lord, right now, this moment...?
Ok, deep breath.
I can be obedient.

I am never gonna get it all "right", but I can be obedient.

The lady of the house... said...

so beautiful.
i loved the way you worded it all.
we are so much more then what we SEE!!!!!

love to you today.